still with out car. and my phone broke. and i got really sick. ever think sometimes life just seems to be a bad country western song ?
BUT this week after some serious re evaluation. i decided the hell with it. who cares, right ? just gotta press on. like, sometimes life just suck but its in the time that life sucks the most where the decisions we make determines the kind of person we become. for me- the past 5 months has been life altering. but if i want me back i gotta get back to the basics.. taking care of me. so this week, yes my car has been a pain. so i went to the worx as much as i could and just worked out on my the other days.
saturday i was determined to go for a run no matter if it was snowing or sleeting... so i went . i just did it. i was happy . i was a little disappointed i only ran three miles. then after stating that- was shortly reminded, 3 miles- not to shabby in the least. so whatever- small step to getting that back.
each time i get to go tto boot camp i do get a little stronger for sure.. stamina wise. those high intensities are just that.
i guess thats its.... my goals this week are to keep pushing the best i can.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Sunday, January 20, 2013
week # 2- Honesty.
this is the honest truth.
i feel like i am having soo many obstacles pushing me away from what i thought i wanted. and what i should and need to want. and what i do what inside. which is to find me again. on my last journey i was so motivated,by myself.... and i pushed and pushed. and i wasnt even in the greatest life situation. and in an odd way i think that helped push me. but this is now. and now im in a slump.
the nutrition part isnt the stuggle for me. its the work out part. when im working out its me pushing myself to the max. but getting myself there is the stuggle. first my foot, then my car tires being stolen.... but under it all theres a lack of motivation. and i think its because the last time i was at the worx commited i was here strong and felt strong. but honestly, because ive just let myself go bc of my life situation... i dunno i just feel weak...
i need to find my inner me again. and i dont even know if that makes sense.
but i see my team out there kicking ass.. and it does motivate. and when i am there i do push.
my goals for the rest of the journey are to get comitted. keep my to this PLEASE!!
i feel like i am having soo many obstacles pushing me away from what i thought i wanted. and what i should and need to want. and what i do what inside. which is to find me again. on my last journey i was so motivated,by myself.... and i pushed and pushed. and i wasnt even in the greatest life situation. and in an odd way i think that helped push me. but this is now. and now im in a slump.
the nutrition part isnt the stuggle for me. its the work out part. when im working out its me pushing myself to the max. but getting myself there is the stuggle. first my foot, then my car tires being stolen.... but under it all theres a lack of motivation. and i think its because the last time i was at the worx commited i was here strong and felt strong. but honestly, because ive just let myself go bc of my life situation... i dunno i just feel weak...
i need to find my inner me again. and i dont even know if that makes sense.
but i see my team out there kicking ass.. and it does motivate. and when i am there i do push.
my goals for the rest of the journey are to get comitted. keep my to this PLEASE!!
Sunday, January 13, 2013
week # 1
okay week # 1. came and gone.
a few words about this week. i did not think these work outs were going to be that hard to get back into to be honest. i kinda forgot about the pain and exactly how much internal effort it takes to keep going. its been hard. but each time i get through the work out i sure am damn proud of not only my self but my team mates.
had a little set back this week with reinjuring my foot... but i am still trying to push through.
tomorrow starts the ultimate challenge... school and working full time. but im still determined to get me back.which actually seems to be harder than i thought....\gotta find happiness within myself and learn to be happy with me.
my teamates are all bad ass. each one of them has pushed me in a different way. some towards working out harder, some towards nutrition, some towards preperation. so shout outs to everyone. : )
my goals for this week are to push myself 100 percent during all the work outs and to stay away from all alcohol and to add more veggies and green in to all my meals.
a few words about this week. i did not think these work outs were going to be that hard to get back into to be honest. i kinda forgot about the pain and exactly how much internal effort it takes to keep going. its been hard. but each time i get through the work out i sure am damn proud of not only my self but my team mates.
had a little set back this week with reinjuring my foot... but i am still trying to push through.
tomorrow starts the ultimate challenge... school and working full time. but im still determined to get me back.which actually seems to be harder than i thought....\gotta find happiness within myself and learn to be happy with me.
my teamates are all bad ass. each one of them has pushed me in a different way. some towards working out harder, some towards nutrition, some towards preperation. so shout outs to everyone. : )
my goals for this week are to push myself 100 percent during all the work outs and to stay away from all alcohol and to add more veggies and green in to all my meals.
Monday, January 7, 2013
gettin it back
Hi all. Well here it is... second go around. I havr mixed feelings of excitement, nervousness, humility, and a bunch of other ones all floating around.I did the journey earlier last year and from the outside I thought I was pretty freaking successful to be honest. I lost a lot of weight and got into great shape and felt the best I had felt ever. I gained a confidence in a time where I needed it the most. A time where I was in a very destructive unhealthy relationship. But ive learned success is only measured on how you respond during times of turmoil. And I crumbled
Last year was hands down the hardest year for me and I let it get to me hard. But I'm attempting to get it back. And this is the first step for that.
I need lose weight yes. But to me its more than that... its about getting me back. I love the feeling of being in the best shape of life. Of doing push ups at the same time moving sand bags bc I need more of a challenge. I need me back. I feel like somewhere along the way I've lost that. And I need to regain it.
So that is why I'm doing all this. I hope to inspire every one here and I know you all will inspire me.we will become one big family that helps one another.
Last year was hands down the hardest year for me and I let it get to me hard. But I'm attempting to get it back. And this is the first step for that.
I need lose weight yes. But to me its more than that... its about getting me back. I love the feeling of being in the best shape of life. Of doing push ups at the same time moving sand bags bc I need more of a challenge. I need me back. I feel like somewhere along the way I've lost that. And I need to regain it.
So that is why I'm doing all this. I hope to inspire every one here and I know you all will inspire me.we will become one big family that helps one another.
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