the final day

SIKE. its not the final day of the my journey.. just the final fit test and the final weigh in with "the journey". But oh no my friends, my journey is going strong.
i dont know whats happened. buts these past 60 days has just woken me up from a "fitness slump." its pushed me. made me utter very bad words. drip loads of sweat every class. do push ups, divebombers, planks, etc etc until failure. its pushed me out of a comfort zone that i got into with my work outs before. were they working before, sure but i was bored and only looked forward to when i was with my trainer. now i look forward (even when i dead tired) to the worx because i know after im gonna feel challenged.

this weigh in didnt go as plan. the final weigh in i gained 2 lbs. this is the first time in the 60 days ive pt on any weight. im not sure why. i know i havent been doing as much cardio this week. and pushing more weights. but you know what who cares ??? why because i lost inches !! and that is what matters. smaller in size. the # on the scale matters to a certain extent. BUT what really matters is losing inches, body fat, and toning up. and a lifestyle change !!!
this 2 pound weight gain does take away that ive gone down 1.5 sizes in clothes and 2 notches on my belt. ive lot inches everywhere ! and alot of my clothes are much bigger especially in the legs and the "upper abdomen ". and even my hips and ghetto booty have gone down.

now my on to keeping this journey up. body beast and cardio like 3-4 times a week. (the 4th would be light). time to get some big ass gunz : )

me and my coach last day of the journey aug 2012. Thanks Jenn for everything. seriously. you are a great encourager ,motivator, and definately an inspiration. !! hope to join you on  one of your runs soon !! : )

better late than never.. BLOGS

I kind of forgot to post the due by Sunday blog. So i figured I would write one up now real quick- post measurements/fit test. Fit test went pretty good. ill be honest Mondays work out was HARD. and when i say hard i mean at the end of of all i just wanted to keep laying on my mat. I pushed it  this fit test and at the end of the fit test, i was done. Then i hear okay lets keep going- okay, i think to myself, just a few more. then it keeps going and then okay just a few more, okay  now partner work, oksy now hurdles, now sprints, now abs.. dear god is it almost over... type work out.. i was DONE! but it was the kind of work out i like. i love when i leave there dragging and barely able to move after. i know i worked me ass off.
Measurement and weigh in went well. 2 more lbs off. upper body not much difference in the measuremeant but from the waist down i went down all around. And i the spots where i knew i went down where confirmed. the pants that ive been wearing for every weigh in (try to wear the same ones for the same type of fitting)  are baggie and loose now ! i wore a dress this weekend and it was a size 8!!  oh yea an 8. i had to get rid of one o my belt because all the notches were gone ... oh yea.. so ill take it.
B- my body feels great! through the fit test i feel like i have more endurance.
L- i ve learned i can do things ive never thought i can. i might be tired as hell during a work out or feeling like i cant push anymore. but i can i just gotta dig deep. its in me.
O- like i say every blog. change is hard . but you got to learn to adapt. you cant always be around healthy food or healthy people or a gym but you have to adapt and make the best choices you can. no gym, go outside and run. if you have to pick between a turkey sandwich and a fried something or another pic the turkey sandwich and ditch half or all the bun... make choice.. change is hard. but change can be good.
G- i am celebrating  how great i felt in my outfit this weekend. i had the cutest dress and heels on and i felt hot. i felt good from the inside out. everyone telling me how awesome i looked yea, that was nice.. but it felt good for ME to think damn, i look good
S- small goals.. well i start school next week. work full time and school 3/4 time. its hard. i wont lie... im gonna be tired. im going to need to be even more prepared now and ready to work out and meals planned etc.. goals are to be ready to conquer from the begining to keep everything up and going !!

today im 28!!

usually when my birthday comes around i kinda of just ignore it. im not sure why but after about the age of 21-22 the more life became real. the more i became more of an "adult" i guess.
this year i feel like i have a lot to celebrate.
ive moved in with my boyfriend of now a little over 4 years
ive got my career goals in focus and school goals in gear. life route finally planned.
the job im doing now is something that interests me until i finish school.
im making things happen for myself. im no longer just letting life pass me by.
example. i want to become a body combat instuctor. sept 14-15 i am going to a confrence to get trained on that.
example. i want to help people in a sports / medicine environment- im going to school to become a physical therapist.
example. im sticking to keeping myself health and fit by becoming a part of groups that keep eachother accountable and push one another.
example. i wanna see how far i can go. im sick of holding my self back and im sick of selling myselgf short- im doing the tough mudde in sept and the end of august im doing body beast.

this year on my birthday i worked out. not only did i work out. i went to a 6 am the worx boot camp class. i was proud of myself. during class i was thinking- damn, this is the first year i think ive ever actually worked out on my birthday. im taking this day to do something for me . im getting myself a little healthier and a little closer to my goals.

on that note... im just gonna do this... put it out there... maybe not all ove FB to see. but to the few who actually look at this blog.

i as the maid of honor in my best friends wedding the other weekend... pic below.

here is a pic from a few years back...probably my heaviest point// me in the orange

all this to say... this year. 28. is gonna be the year for me!!!!! nothing is holding me back ever again.
and to those who need some enouragement... LOOK at these pics and the pic all over the worx.. you can do it !!!!!!!!!  hard work. dedication.support. its all you need.

Like Maia always says. you gotta know you WHYS. if you dont know what you are doing something you are just aimlessly doing it and you are going to go far. you are kind of just wondering around in circles...

BLOGS # 7

its BLOGS time. gee the time has passed by. just finished up the half way social. it was fun. and i liked the throwing away the excuses and refocing on the WHYS. i felt all dumb and shaky thats why i volunteered to go so quickly BECAUSE i hate speaking in front of people lol. but it was a good excercise.
it made me think again on my biggest why. my biggest why is because i wanna know how far i can go. there was always an excuse with the old heavier and unhealthy me of why i couldnt do something. why i couldnt go to the gym or why i was going to eat this unhealthy thing. why i couldnt push for one more push up or why i had to to give in to the drinking with my friends. the journey has helped me realize i have alot of potential. i can go far physically. but the only way i can do that is throught making healthy lifestyle choices. eating clean and working out. the why for me is how much further physically can i push myself. for me the next step is straight up weight training.

i read something online about body beast. i need a challenge. im thinking about doing this. this would be something completely OUT of my comfort zone. this is a why for me. how far can i go.

B- my body is feeling great! meds are working awesome. work out wise.. ive had like 3 or 4 people come up to me and tell me my push ups are getting awesome.. so hell yea to that.

L- ive learned that its much easier to do this as a team. when you have people to talk to when im strugling or when i need ideas or accountability.... this lifestyle isnt for everyone.. and the few that are determined enough to take it on sometimes need help- and that is where the team comes in,

O- observations about change... can be good. its hard but can be good. for instance. lately ive been eating all sorts of weird things id never try. like today chai seeds i think they are called... the bomb.

G- small goals... 2 times this week i am going to work out in the morning and in the evening on the same day, pull a flo if you will : )

S- i offically wear a size 9. hells yes. ,,went dress shopping and the 10 ive been is.. its just to beg up top.. had to buy a 9.... YAYAYAY !!!!

so thats it !

B.L.O.G.S. # 6- Perspective

Im doing the BLOGS a day early because tomorrow is gonna be jam packed for me... and I want to stay on schedule with it.
From my posts this week its no suprise this week has been hard for me. physically and mentally. Mentally I could do it physically I could not/ shouldnt have. Guess I need to realize that when Im working out and I feel like im going to pass out or feel like im dizzy etc etc I need to step back. And sometimes... thats ok.
BUT now that thats said- I am feeling SO much better. Im not sure what happened but my body seems to finally have adjusted to my new medication. Im so grateful. It sounds silly but I missed not being able to give 100 percent at each work out. I am still tired as hell, but tired I can do. Seeing stars and up chuck not so much : ) I went to the worx  today and since I have been "working out" this week but not like usual it felt like ive taken a week off. it was TOUGH !! wow. I was drenched in sweat. it was awesome !
B - well i think the above paragraphs somes that up.

L- ive learned that i need to sometimes listen to my body and not be so stubborn. But also ive learned that i have some really supportive team memeber like no joke. ive had a couple good heart to hearts this week and its nice to talk to people who have crazy health problems.. maybe they dont have seizures or migraines lke I do but they have other issues that they themselves have to work through as well.

O- change is getting easier. for instance going out to dinner. always a challenge.. but Ive changed the way I look at it. i dont go out so much for the food but for the company. ... its easier t eat healthy that way !

G- small goals--- my belt! it went down a notch. hells yea. AND speaking of going out to dinner- i pre looked at the menu . found what i was ordering- a steak salad w bleu cheese crispy onion rings and ceaser dressing-- MINUS the crispy onions and the dressing, yes i still go the ccheese. but i prepared and brought my own 2 tbs of light dressing only 50 cals compared to that dressing which would have been easily 300 ( it was lke half a bowl of dressing they gave me on that side).

S- ive decided i am not longer eating red meat during the week and if I do eat it during the weekend it will only be once. i love me some red meat. lean ground beef or lean steak YUM. but i want to start making my proteins as clean as possible. also i am going to start weight training 3 times a week !!

pooped

man im exausted. i have been so tired/ sick this whole week. work outs have been tough ! its only wednesday lol. but everytime ive worked out ive felt like i was going to pass out/ upchuck everywhere/ or just had no energy. i feel like im a pretty fierce competitor in my work outs but felt like ive been in sllllllllllooooow mode.
its been hard because i like to push myself to the max. and when im unable to do that it pisses me off. besides that ive been having to FORCE myself to eat. everyones dream right, no appetite ? well it would be mine but not when im training hard. it makes me have to energy. i went to work out with my trainer tonight and about 1/3 into it she was straight up like "what the f*** is wrong with you".   i was on slow mo / weak as hell.  it sucked. i dont like being called out for doing shitty.
hopefully by the end of this week my body will adjust and ill be back to normal !!!!