week # 2- Honesty.

this is the honest truth.

 i feel like i am having soo many obstacles pushing me away from what i thought i wanted. and what i should and need to want. and what i do what inside. which is to find me again. on my last journey i was so motivated,by myself.... and i pushed and pushed. and i wasnt even in the greatest life situation. and in an odd way i think that helped push me. but this is now. and now im in a slump.
the nutrition part isnt the stuggle for me. its the work out part. when im working out its me pushing myself to the max. but getting myself there is the stuggle. first my foot, then my car tires being stolen.... but under it all theres a lack of motivation. and i think its because the last time i was at the worx commited  i was here strong and felt strong. but honestly, because ive just let myself go bc of my life situation... i dunno i just feel weak...

i need to find my inner me again. and i dont even know if that makes sense.
but i see my team out there kicking ass.. and it does motivate. and when i am there i  do push.
my goals for the rest of the journey are to get comitted. keep my to this PLEASE!!