when i decided to do to "redo". i knew i wanted to do it. i knew i was ready to make a change. to fight for something ive lost. and i was determined to do it. no matter what baggage i was holding onto. it just didn't matter anymore. this is definitely a battle of getting my health and fitness back as well as just fight to get me back. at the mixer we did this exercise where we just had to throw everything in the past, everything holding us back behind. we had to really think about it. and really focus and just realize what we were letting determine on what was getting in the way. and then we had to just throw it out. and honestly it felt like 100 lbs just lifted. it really helped make the fire burn even more under my ass. and then picturing where we could be (where we will be). it was just a great bonding experience i think to everyone who was there !
b- my body i think is definitely changing. my upper body strength is getting much better. i am able to last longer on the push ups. and my endurance level is definitely higher . yay!.
l- read above. : ) PLUS ive learned a lot about some fellow journeyers lately, where people have come from and why they are here. everyone has there story. and sometimes there is something about just hearing why people are here and connecting with them- that really brings people together and gives you and new even more found respect to where they are at.
o- my o yea moment was releasing the bullshit that has held me back. like really. and also i am having some problems dropping weight on the scale (medicine issues)- but i mean, yes its discouraging but like since being back on the journey, consistently working out, being back with the community; it hasn't defined me. i don't know if that makes sense because this is the best ive felt in a while .. its actually made me more determined to try and beat that : )
g- my goals this week: attend one yoga class. (yikes.)
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